When I wake up…
The awakening essay
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| Written by Johan | |
| Thursday, 08 July 2010 | |
When I wake up…Johan When I wake up in the morning, and while yawning I rub my eyes, will I remember Who I really am? Will I, all through the just started day, know who walks with me all the time? Father I am your Son.Do I have any idea what this means? You, Who are love itself, never left me comfortless. For a long time I forgot, but today I decide to remember this anew. You are always with me, because You created me and You share my Identity completely. Can I be at another place than in the Land of Love? Can I be somewhere else but safe and secure in Your Peace? I can be wrong in what I perceive, that’s true. But a mistake doesn’t change Your Truth. Today I decide to perceive in a different way. Today I will not perceive the things upside down, and project fear, suffering and pain on it. I want all of my experiences to be in line with my right thinking. You created me as pure Love, this is the way I want to see my brother. In the knowledge that Your creative Power is mine, it’s important to me to remember my total responsibility for myself and my brothers. This Power isn’t a toy. Like I will perceive them today, the way I create them today, is how they will be to me. I can’t stop the creation of my own being or change. It is always active. That is the way You wanted it. But I have to decide if I want to keep creating, if I want to share in Your creative power. To create is to share, and only love can be shared. What I do with my thinking right now is image making. Beings alien to Love. Can this creation gratify me? How insane to see my brother as my enemy. What weird reason to project guilt and separation on them who only exist in my mind. I have mistaken myself so badly! The greatest insanity is this: I thought Your Divine Oneness could be undone and I could escape from what I give to others. How wrong can one be! The way I perceive others is the way I think about myself. Can I escape suffering and death by seeing my brothers as weak, lonely and bereft? Can I be Love without seeing them as Love? Or can I trust my Father if I perceive His Son as a criminal? Do I want to keep thinking like this? Let me remember to give everything to everyone. Fear and matter cannot be shared. That’s why I will bless my brothers with Love and total appreciation. I will see beyond what the world shows me, no matter how bad it may look, in the knowledge that it is all my creation anyway. Today I will not separate myself from my brother by judging him, no matter what he did in this illusion. ‘This is all I made’ and I can only say how it didn’t satisfy me. Let me just accept what is. I don’t want to make up stuff or replace an old creation by a slightly different the same one. I will carry no more water to the sea! Now I give this situation to you, Holy Spirit. I withdraw myself of any judgement about it, and step back. I will not speak and will not act. But I will accept in joy and certainty what You make of it. And that is how it is. Fear thoughts block the way sometimes. There are so many thoughts in me that limit the world and my brothers. There are also so many ideas in me how the world should look. None of these ideas can I keep. I have to let them go. They are the blocks to experience peace. It is a block to experience Love. They will not stop me. It is nothing more than a weak veil; I can step through it without effort. Every idea of limitation is replaced by Your blessing of forgiveness. I don’t have to defend or attack. I don’t have to be afraid or don’t have to explain myself. I will look straight at it and smile at it when I see the issue melt away before my eyes like snow by the sun. Thank You Father, for your blessing of forgiveness! My goal of everything that is happening in the world is set. Without a predetermined goal the world has no meaning. Only knowledge will be my goal today, for me as well as for others. Everything that is in line with this goal I will use and appreciate and all the rest I will neglect. To be vigilant in that today, I am aware that my aligned thinking is necessary. Let me remember today that I have chosen for a different direction than the one I used to choose. It is a direction that goes in the opposite of the world’s ways. Without this vision I will be quickly lost. And let me see that the Holy Spirit places opposites opposing one another only for the reason to return to knowledge for everyone involved. To be in peace I will ask You all through the day what to do. “Where do You want me to go; What do You want me to do; What do you want me to say, and to whom?” This I will repeat over and over again, during the day, otherwise I will be lost in thinking I do “Your Will”. These questions will keep disappointments away from me and confirm to me that what I said was right. Because I asked You to inspire me. I will not forget when You ask me something to do, I have to do it. Otherwise I will loose myself again in sideways that accumulate and block the Truth. Jesus Christ, today I will not perceive injustice, nor believe that a sacrifice is asked of me or others. Maybe there are things that I still hold onto and I better could let go of. They probably don’t fit in the path that I chose. In peace I will see how they get a new owner or a new destiny. The principles and ideals that I learned in the past, You will give them another interpretation. I will accept yours and let mine go. Nothing that I really need will be taken away from me and I trust your knowledge in this. Nevertheless I know that this will take as long as I grow and see that I don’t need a body at all. So I don’t have to be afraid to be left bereft behind, because you keep gentle pace with what I can handle. My prayer of today will be a prayer of gratitude. Thanks for all I have; thanks for You who created me like all. This is the only true prayer, because it puts Your Creation in perspective. No one is in need of anything, because everyone is sharing in Your abundance. That’s the way to look at myself and my brothers, because abundance and wellbeing is Your will. That’s why I will thank you for your son; he will give me everything I need. I will not wait to learn from him, because I am aware that You send him to me for that reason. He will answer my questions and he will show me where I hold on to the past. Blessed is your son, my brother, Father. He will lead me to Your Truth. And so I will today, when I wake up, Decide to be awake And not to exchange one sleep for another. Amen. |
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