My Awakening

To express and share with you the crucial moments in my awakening i place them within the specific and detailed context of my human story. These essays are very personal to me and its narrative is organized around the pivotal awakening moments in my life often perhaps in strong contrast with the context of what I previously call 'my life'. These very memories and stories shifted my consciousness and brought invaluable lessons about life and how to awaken to it.

I realize that the awakening is a shared experience and through telling you the details of my story you can identify and appreciate your own, rather than avoid or regret it. I will convey practical lessons just as much as the abstractions of eternal truth that came to and through me in study, practice, and teaching of A Course in Miracles.

Being both specific and abstract these personal awakening essays will heightens  your awareness and leave you with a tangible trail of reflective, practical, and transformative tools to initiate in you this shared awakening. As you follow my awakening you will have your own.

I challenge you to:

1. Identify and 'own' your human story. You can use it as fuel for increased awareness and an awakening to follow.
2. Be aware of your predicament and intensify your readiness to welcome the inevitable alternative experience.
3. Be released from the weight and pain of the separation inherent in your stories and dramas by letting go deep seated feelings of unworthiness and abandonment  at the root of your human experience.

Identifying with your story serves two purposes. You accept it as part of the process of your awakening process instead of causing further separation in trying to cut yourself off from the past. Appreciate your past, present, and future as the necessary motivation for a fundamental change to wholeness. Learn, through forgiveness, to become patient and compassionate towards yourself and others who play and played a prominent role in your life.

The second quality you will need in order to benefit from the both universal and ultra-personal awakening experiences that I have recreated for you in these essays, is a constant willingness to be wrong about everything you think is true, so that at all times you may be open for learning and change. Maintaining such willingness requires discipline, commitment, dedication, perseverance. You have failed to bring to your life consistent and lasting peace and happiness. Willingness is not rooted in the drive to become a better person. It is rooted in the disruption caused by a God experience which gives you a fixed, true, and eternal reference point. What is you were wrong about everything you ever perceived, felt, wanted, hoped for, remembered, or anticipated?